Go up the mountain
seek the sun
walk the path
do not run
Wayward roads
started but undone
finish the ends
the breaks. the tares, the bends
the fears, the losses, the trends
the bones, the hearts, the flesh
and all the rest

Lay the mountain down
put it upon my chest
lying straight faced up
stones on my head
on my back cold rock
lay the mountain down
after you've picked it up
only a mustard seed
at the bottom of my cup

If it has always been wrong
then I should feel no loss,
But if every time I tried
there was a real chance at success
then I've lost a lot for sure.

Lord,

Bring me what you want for me
Take away this longing
this endless struggle
fly me to a reason to move out of the country
take me away from my own mess.

Endless

Who am I kidding?

Perhaps 

only a couple people

and myself

I am completely uninspired, bored, and unhappy

today.

I'm just not joyful anymore
and barely feel happy
I'm not depressed
or am I
There must be more
to this life I've been given
who would want to die
with me
but also plan a life
and a family
it's unimaginable
to me
where I am
what I'm doing now
but would I feel the same
five years from now
living on a farm
pulling a plow?